I know, i know i haven't been around for a while but hey I had a lot going on. I apologize and i hope you all can forgive me and accept my toke of apology: another dose of Suga for your sweet tooth!
This was somewhat requested by several people. We would have a conversation that made it clear that this is what I need to speak on. So...lets do it!
I cannot stand LIARS and FAKERS! Just be yourself. You don't have to lie to get ahead with me. Just be real. I always say that I would rather you tell me the truth and break my heart then lie to me and loose me forever. Granted I understand some lies are necessary, and those are accepted by society so I try not to make a big fuss. BUT In the end the truth always sets you free. (Kind of cliche right?) Let me tell you a story...
Picture it South Florida 2008...lmbo..Just playing guys...
I met this guy whom we will call Mack. And Mack was a wonderful man. Sweet, caring, funny, loving and treated me like a Queen. He cooked for me and used to take me this place were we would sit by the water and just talk. He'd wrap his arms around me and we would laugh and think and talk about our dreams. Now see the problem with Mack was that even though he spent sooooooooooo much time with me, Mack also had a girlfriend. When we first met I knew that him and her were on the outs, so it makes sense that I just figured that they broke up. (It would be safe for you to assume that I was wrong seeing as I am writing about this situation.) Well Mack and I started getting really serious and one day with tears in his eyes he told me he loved me. Literally two weeks later I got a text message from Mack that said "Me and that bitch are done! She told me the baby aint mine" WTF 1) what bitch are you done with? B) What baby? & 3rd) when the fuck were you gonna tell me?? Our whole relationship was a lie. After I politely told him what he can kiss, where to go, and even offered to send him there he still called me. Told me she was crazy, he wasn't happy and he wanted me but didn't want to leave his son. That part is understandable. I told him to leave me alone, and go work on that relationship that he felt the need to lie to me about. Yes my feelings were hurt. Yes I have issues trusting him or people in general. And Yes I am over him. I forgave him for what he did because I refuse to hold on to anger.
In the end he still calls me, tries to rub in how "happy" he is with her. I tell him don't try to prove it to me that's your life not mine. I am merely someone he met in passing. I do believe he loved me, but that shit is for the birds! He still lied to me! Led me to believe it was us against the world and not only was he with her but she was carrying his child! Now we can't have that friendship we had before. There will be no more in depth conversations about cartoons. Or watching this boats sail by. That is over. I just hope somewhere down the line he truly becomes happy. I feel like even though lying to me made it easier for him to handle his business, I do know that lying to yourself will ruin you forever. You hurt others but more importantly you hurt yourself! And what do you have to show for it?
The moral of this story stop lying! Be yourself!
xoxoxoxo
MsSuga
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